| watched WICKER PARK yesterday with my best bud Arlene...twas a nice movie ...nice twists in the story. went to my parent's house yesterday...my bro's bday celebration.....loved the soup and the BBQs... slept over and ate breakfast with mom....i have to admit that i miss my old home  ...not just the cooking..not just the homey feel...but the people as well.... Dad's improving i have to admit....he was the one who prepared my food....now that was sweet.
a bit sad today..... still have issues that needs to be addressed....
when...
when....
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| suddenly remembered the birthday card i got on my 18th birthday...
when i think about it....it aint flattering at all....
SELF ESTEEM- -offspring
I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practice all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her no
When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should speak up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah yeah yeah
Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem
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| Been doing some thinking.... I think i wanna start teaching kids...
Do you think i can be a good teacher? wahehehe |
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| just got back from my 3 day suspension....then it's my off again tomorrow.... Im in a happier state now...got to talk to bebekoy after 4 days of not communicating with each other .Twas a sad week for me....im not used to being "away" from him that long.....
Spent my 3 day freedom just drinking and bummin around....Wish i lived near the beaches instead. Wouldn't it be nice if i could live in Hawaii for even a couple of months just learn to surf and just beachcomb ....that'll be such a refreshing break. Im gonna do that one of these days.....
learned a lot of things with our last "episode". I learned that i was selfish and a brat...and it sucks Im gonna try and change...need to mature....haaaaaaaaaaay
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| Got here at the office late... it's this new schedule change that i cant handle..... what's the point of going to the freakin' sleep doctor if people at the office wont even consider my condition serious....
all work and no sleep makes pretty a girl!
Went to Brightpoint service center yesterday to have my SAP serviced...got new glass and joystick for my amazing phone... yesterday was really tiring..i wasnt even able to chat with my spongebob.....poor spongebob got a taste of my mood last night...sorry |
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